Pure and Simple love

S.T.O.P

Vinachin — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 15:28:56 +0000

It felt like a never ending pain.

“Hang in there,hang in there! I will be okay,it will end one day and it will go faster than you expect. It just doesn’t feel like that right now. But i know it will.”
I thought i already moved on.I actually did.
I was not counting days he’s coming back,was i? But then i saw one of his pictures..i haven’t heard anything of him for a while .I don’t even know why i am crying.I don’t know what to do..to move on, to stop hurting, to stop crying, to stop loving. Perhaps even to forget?
What am i thinking?
I don’t even love him，do i?
So now I don’t know what I should tell myself anymore.
So what is it?

Tattoo

Vinachin — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 18:57:57 +0000

记得今夏我被告知我不能再跳芭蕾时，对我的打击很大。每当在我宣泄沉闷的压力的同时，我的右脚也随着隐隐作痛。医生说右脚拇指指根如果持续发炎，必须要进行手术。所以几乎不能再穿高跟鞋和我最宝贵的舞鞋。
为了避免手术，我选择了24/7帆布鞋&UGG BOOTS，既然我不能再碰舞鞋，so只有把它刻在身上直至永远—“芭蕾舞鞋在钢琴上跳出美妙的音符“（第一个属于自己的纹身，并且也是自己设计的），我并不喜欢纹身，我喜欢女孩子身上干干净净。可是每双我跳过舞鞋，我弹过的曲子，都有着它们的灵魂。这些东西是必须要伴随着我一生的。我每天洗澡看着我的脚裸，真的是一个很疼很疼的纹身，但是很美，我很爱很爱。让我意外的是，一直反时尚的妈妈都觉得喜欢，说是她女儿灵魂的一部分。我很是开心，我不管别人怎么看我，我也不在乎。因为没有什么比家人的支持更来得快乐与窝心。外婆跳了一辈子的舞，妈妈也断断续续跳了半辈子，我也不会就结束我的舞蹈生涯。我知道我一定可以再穿上我心爱的舞鞋，只是时间的问题。

Gemini

Vinachin — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 08:14:19 +0000

很久没有收到手写信了：）
因为或许有着相隔10年之久，十年以来的第一封来自好友的感谢信使我感到很开心，也很满足：）
充满着感激的信的确让我惊喜许久，可能象征着纯洁与曾经感到遥不可及的，如今却能再次拥有的宝藏。第一封用英语写的友情信，我一定好好珍藏。他告诉我他希望无论多少年后再次重温这封信，都不会是纸上谈兵，依旧是一样的感觉。
我很开心我处理好了这段关系，选择和Mr.B做朋友那是因为我知道我自己想要什么，并且知道他不适合我 as a boyfriend.
他就是照片中无敌的B，希望他永远快乐能找到属于自己的幸福：）做为好友的我会一直支持和祝福他：）

Back to Innocence

Vinachin — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 07:13:27 +0000

Don’t be afraid to be weak
Don’t be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don’t hide
Just believe in destiny
Don’t care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don’t give up and miss the chance
To return to innocence
That’s not the beginning of the end
That’s the return to yourself
The return to innocence
One of the best photographs I took this year.
I’m so happy i had such a beautiful morning with my sweet friend–Babur:)

As long As

Vinachin — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 19:25:04 +0000

My father told me when I was little that as long as I work hard,happiness will come knocking on door.So ever since I was young I always helped others out,as long as someone needs me,I will try my best to treat them well.
I’m happy when others are happy.I must spent too much time in japan,so without knowing,I became a cold girl in their eyes.
Japan is not a right place for me.I’m not just saying,i truly have a warm&beautiful heart,but no one knows it tho.
As long as you have a chip in our hands,we will always have hope.
Unfortunately,I don’t have anything in my hands.
I don’t even have sex life.lol

Today is Oct 24..
I don’t remember anything about this post…?!!God I must be so drunk when I wrote it.
This is AMAZING.

Crash.

Vinachin — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 00:34:40 +0000

好久没见他，直到昨晚我才意识到我从未放弃过。

可能我爱得太过于牵强了。

他喝了很醉，我很担心，也很心疼。

Ok.It hurts.

I thought we might have future if I tried harder.
I did not know he had a girl friend.
He’d never know how much I love him.
好难过
I’m just a clown:..(

Wrong Time

Vinachin — Mon, 03 Oct 2011 19:37:22 +0000

I wish i could wake up with my face nuzzled into your chest. I wish i could feel the warmth of your breath flowing down my face. I wish i could hear the slow, rhythmic thumps of your heart on your chest. For a moment, it could feel so perfect once again.I know that someday I will love again. But I’m not going to sit around and wait impatiently for that day to come. I’m not going to rush into yet another relationship that isn’t going to last, just because he smiled at me and gave me butterflies. I’m going to live life to the fullest, and appreciate the little things in life.

To this day I still don’t know what to believe, and I still don’t know if I made the right decision. There is a part of me that hopes one day you will find me again, and that you will never let me go.

One day, the wait will be worth it.

My loneliness

Vinachin — Tue, 09 Aug 2011 19:37:43 +0000

All our forms of separating ourselves from others come from wanting to be special in some way.Therefore our loneliness is actually coming from the desire to prove we are special.At times,there is a certain poignancy to loneliness;we suffer quietly by ourselves,feeling the pangs of our specialness.We’d rather be special than make contact with others,but specialness always leads to pain.Specialness is walys a form of separation,looking for special kinds of needs to be met.None of us can be lonely unless deep within ourselves we want to be;loneliness is a choice…

Today,examine the areas where you are asking to be treated specially.Acknowledge that your loneliness comes out of wanting to be different,because you are afraid to be unique——-a Leadership gift.Be willing to let go of this veil of specialness,this veil that keeps creating pain for you.Give up your choice for loneliness ;D and make contact with those around you.Move past your need for specialness!!Realize that you are recognized and appreciated and that you have a natural attractiveness;))

Night.

Vinachin — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 18:25:40 +0000

I’m so sad about Nassicca’s leaving:(She’s staying at my place tonight.We talked about life,love,dreams,future;it’s nice that we opened mind to have some nice girl’s talk.I will go to France to visit her in the future.
I already miss you,Nausicaa/Rei:)

It was REAL.

Vinachin — Fri, 22 Jul 2011 08:46:13 +0000

I am a nameless flower.

I’m scared.

I’m scared of loving and getting hurt.

I’m scared of losing my independence.

I’m scared of new things and the unknown. Like having a boyfriend.

There are few things are my true loves in my life.My mother & father,my grandma,my 4 brothers,my best friend,music,my two pianos,my old ballet shoes,my headphone,my camera and my cat jimmy. I know that none of these objects of my affection would ever hurt me.The single time I really, really liked a guy, he just lead me on and ended up making me feel like shit.The question that’s been asked millions of times before: is love worth all of the pain that will most likely spawn from it?

Never really worried about relationships and all of that.But now that there’s another chance for me to get close to a guy, I’m scared of losing my independence. I wonder if i had a beautiful heart.Cause i can’t accept his attitude.I wonder if he ever looked down me.Its okay for me tho,because i don’t expect everyone likes me.I’m not even in love,i feel i am really silly.But i’m in love with him.