S.T.O.P

It felt like a never ending pain.

“Hang in there,hang in there! I will be okay,it will end one day and it will go faster than you expect. It just doesn’t feel like that right now. But i know it will.”
I thought i already moved on.I actually did.
I was not counting days he’s coming back,was i? But then i saw one of his pictures..i haven’t heard anything of him for a while .I don’t even know why i am crying.I don’t know what to do..to move on, to stop hurting, to stop crying, to stop loving. Perhaps even to forget?
What am i thinking?
I don’t even love him，do i?
So now I don’t know what I should tell myself anymore.
So what is it?